So, I’m currently singing my guts out to some Lady GaGa. Pondering.. Pondering.. “Sometimes I wonder if God hides out in cities to set us free. Cause, yeah this room is crowded but I’m so alone in it. Help me please.” Those words haunt me.
What’s been on my mind today? Sigh. A lot of things. One of the many, I seem to push people away. Especially the ones that I love. Without even intending to. Sometimes I am too cynical and over-bearing. That’s just me. I’m not going to force myself to change. It’s just not possible.
Now playing is City and Colour. This seems to fit my mood better. & I am really about to sing my guts out now. Mmm. Dallas Green. His voice literally gives me chills.
Have you ever just been sitting alone in your room and felt like there was someone else there with you. Or maybe not even a person. Maybe it’s just a burden or memory that I’ve been carrying along with me for too long. It makes me feel.. Well, I’m not sure I can contemplate any words to use to describe it. It’s just there with me everywhere I go. Like an extra layer of skin. Except.. It’s not there for protection. It’s slowly eating me away. Bitterness.
“Sometimes I wish I could just get it right.” I’m definitely feeling you on that Dallas Green. That’s for sure.